RetroPost: 6.28.05

{Saved from Xanga} Nope, I was wrong about skipping my indescretions. I can still feel the tears in my eyes, dried in the corners- the ones I wouldn't let escape. Tears of shame drop hot on days like these. We've had some rough spots in our relationship- as boyfriend and girlfriend and even more so as a married couple. This one, unfortunately, is panning out to be at the top of the list. It's so painful because I have no idea what's going on. I wish we could just let it go, but it's not that easy. Billy is hurting profoundly. There's no easy outs. We have to fix this. I don't know how. "Sometimes, I think I have it together. Most of the time, I don't."