RetroPost: 2.28.05

{Saved from Xanga} I am feeling decidedly sick to my stomach. If one more thing piles on top of us, I'm going to explode. PLEASE DEAR GOD! Missy broke up with Noah for who the hell knows why!!! She can be the stupidest person in the world. Our weekend fucked up everything. It was one huge shitty misunderstanding where nothing went right. Today has been just that much happier... Son of a bitch. The alarm was set but either it didn't go off (which I doubt) or I just slept through it (which is probably the case but I don't see how I did it). Then I forgot my purse thus I don't have my work keys and when I got here, neither did Faith but we were laughing about it saying how bad of a Monday it's going to be... Then she left because she said she just threw up in the bathroom. Which is when Billy called and said Missy and Noah were having problems but we would talk about it later. Noah was so upset he was puking and went home from work so Billy was alone at the kiosk and I was being the lone teller here pretty much since Jenn is about as useful as a rock. A very annoying rock. So everyone is feeling disgusting with the breakup thing. Totally disgusting. Then, Billy gets a call that our stupid dogs are out again and this time they didn't find someone nice. They found a bitch that was going to call the pound. Goddammit can nothing go right?!? There goes a great couples friendship that I was thriving off of. There goes more money that we really don't have- The gas it takes to Fernley and back again, the loss of pay for Billy leaving work again, buying something else to try to keep them in. We were going to go to Carson after work to see if Billy could join Kim's dad's tae kwon do class....... I have no idea where that money is going to come from. If just one thing would go away, we would be OK... Help. Please.

RetroPost: 2.22.05

{Saved from Xanga} I'm really unhappy to be back at work. I get a little bit more aggrevated each week that I'm most decidedly the lowest paid person here. But then I remind myself that in all honesty, I'm pretty much getting paid to do nothing. Like now. It feels icky to commute for such low pay but I was getting $7 at the Florist and that was a worse commute. You gotta do what ya gotta do. I've worked here longer than any other place which is weird. Anyways... All in all this weekend was so much fun! Even building the dog pen was enjoyable with all of us working on it. Then Missy and I made a fried chicken dinner in which I accidentally made 5 pounds of mashed potatoes!!! HEE. Oh and by the way- Gluttony. Greed. Sloth. Lust. Pride. Envy. Wrath. I only know this because we watched Seven yesterday. Weird movie. Pretty good till the end. That usually happens with me when I'm so involved in a book or movie that I don't want it to end. The ending dissapoints me. The only problem with this weekend was Billy and I forgot we are poor and fat and went on a junk food spending spree. I'm kinda itchy to balance the checkbook and face the damage but I left it at home. Along with my makeup. I feel schlumpy and lost today as a result. Wow, this day is creeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeping by. I'm going to go see if I can get into my e-mail yet. Later! *Jilli*

RetroPost: 2.18.05

{Saved from Xanga} I have to stop. I am so retarded. I don't know why I do this to myself. YOU KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT YOU GLUTTONOUS DEMON! What are the seven deadly sins? I'll have to ask Noah. Anyhoo... What is it about reading other people's blogs? I've been reading newlywed blogs on The Nest and I go there hoping that they've updated. It's funny that way cuz I don't even know these people but I want to be updated on what's going on in their lives. It's especially funny since I keep my blog private. But yeah. I was pretty blah about wiping out our house savings to pay for our fricking escape artists but now I'm feeling OK about it. Actually, I think the transfer will save us- pull us out of our rut. Wednesday had to be the worst best day ever. Billy got pulled over for being retarded then I kept getting screwed over at work and then the dogs... But all in all, Billy & I are ridiculously in love these days so we had way too much fun in the long run. Life is feeling really good lately since Missy and Noah started going out. Couple friends didn't seem like and option for us. We kind of lost Doug cuz he was feeling like a 5th wheel and he's too old for us now that he's in a frat...? Whatever. He picked a good month to be gay cuz we're poor and his birthday is on Sunday. No presents!! Hurrah! But I feel more like myself than I have in ages. So I might as well go all the way. Lovies~ Jilli

RetroPost: 2.17.05

{Saved from Xanga} Well, it finally happened. I ransacked savings. The dogs got out and we had to buy stuff to fix it. Good bye new washer and dryer...

RetroPost: 2.14.05

{Saved from Xanga} I guess I've come to the nonchalant point where I'm just so pissed off I'm happy about it. Bring it on! We're so in looooooove!!! We have TWELVE DOLLARS in our checking account. That's me trying to make in look bigger than it really is. Oh! In that case, I'll write the actual balance. ELEVEN DOLLARS AND NINETY-FIVE CENTS!!! We've been poor before. Very poor. But never before have so many expensive and horrible things piled on in such a short period of time. First, we we're poor to start with. But we were going to pull out by February. Our car registration was due this month. $150. The gas bill came in the mail and they raised rates making it over $200 even though we used less. Nevertheless, we we're still poor but out tax refund was going to pull us out of our slump. But! Then there wasn't one. We had to pay... It was going to be OK though since we don't have to pay for that until April and my mom did fancy footwork to bring it down from $500 to $76. Thus, we change the exemptions on our W4s so that doesn't happen again. In doing so, tho', our take home pay goes down. Not a lot, but enough to make it sting. So, February was going to be tight but we were going to make it. Then the car broke down. Another $500 added to the amount we owe my parents. We got the car back and found out the damn thing needed new tires. Another $150. We paid that outright with Billy's commission check even tho' that money was supposed to go to the new washer and dryer fund. Either way, I'll be damned if I stop making regular transfers to the savings account. I am NOT carting our laundry to Fallon any longer than I have to and we're going to Disneyland in May GODDAMMIT!! We ransacked our $100 cushion to add to savings. God please. Give us strength to endure this tough time. (A nice windfall wouldn't be so bad either, but I can deal with strength!) *Jilli*

RetroPost: 2.11.05

{Saved from Xanga} Not even ten and I'm out of things to do for the moment. This is the last place I want to be. I'm feeling over indulgent and sleepy. Our bed is so soft and fluffy and cozy with the new bedset I never want to get out of it. I see why Noah and Billy get along so well. They freak out over things only they see. I was in such a deep sleep. I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE RIGHT NOW AND I WANT TO GO HOME........ What I really want is to go up to Reno or somewhere or just get in the car and drive. Take Billy and Missy and Noah and just drive and drive and see where we end up. Just go. See things I've seen before but differently. I want to be a kid that doesn't have a full time job or a mortgage or a daily commute. I feel old worrying about how fat I am and how tired I am or how the hell we're going to make ends meet. It's too weird that I am I kid worrying about those things anyway. Set me free please dear god let me be 20 for a day. Just one day and I promise I'll go back to my overly mature lifestyle. I'm not 40 goddammit!! I'm not even 30! I don't want to be in high school, I just want to be my age..............~ Jilli

RetroPost: 2.9.05

{Saved from Xanga} I'm freaking out so bad I don't even know what to do. There's seriously only so far that I can stretch money. I'm trying to think back back back to when we were even poorer than this... How are we going to dig our butts out of this one?

RetroPost: 2.8.05

{Saved from Xanga} I'm so pissed off with money... Oh, yes Valentine's Day is on the horizon and everything is giving us the greatest presents. From the car, we got a broken fan belt! From Tana, a ruined armchair! From the IRS, a brand new tax bracket! From my darling husband, an everlasting head cold! Nothing says I love you like cat pee, a snotty nose, and big fat checks to write out of an itty bitty checking account. Sadness..........

RetroPost: 2.2.05

{Saved from Xanga} Things are looking bleeeeeeeeak. So very, very bleak. Since the last time I wrote, our money situation has gotten worse. We used less gas. But our bill was higher... and this time we can't petition Stefanie for help seeing as she didn't even live at our house last month. And it definitely wasn't Doug cuz he didn't even know how to turn up the thermostat. So, here we are. Saturday I was happy because all of our W2s came in and we could do our taxes. Silly me for relying on a tax refund. We made a horrible mistake with our W4s and now we OWE. And just to add insult to injury, I'm fatter. (Sorry, I had to get that one out.) I don't know how we're going to get out of this one. Oh, yeah. Jenn's back today to ruin our routine yet again. And I have a sore throat and feel like crap. I hate being sick in general but I can deal with it. Unless I have a sore throat. Which I do. Really badly. Damn. God help us. ~Jilli~