RetroPost: 4.28.05

{Saved from Xanga} I'm getting super jazzed about Disneyland!!! I can't contain myself! There's just something about it that makes me tingly inside. I am a total sucker for all that sparkly childlike magic. I'm trying to put together the ultimate itinerary and in my searches I found a picture of the 50th anniversary Mickey ears. I frickin' got the chills, my eyes got all wide... I'm a kid. But seriously now, we started our marriage there and I have so much nostalgia there. Plus, my parents have never stayed at a hotel on the grounds let alone spent more than one day there. So this is like a big warm fuzzy family event. I'm gonna pop! WOOT! ~Jilli~

RetroPost: 4.18.05

{Saved from Xanga} Wow, it's been a long time. So here I am back on the teller line since Jenn quit! I'm still worried about my vacation time, but if it seems to be turning sour, I'm hoping to use the fact that I'm their most experienced teller as a bargaining chip. Either way, family comes first and foremost. Work will never ever come first. So, yeah. But for the moment, I'm planning our trip and making a super itinerary. Well, the reason I actually wanted to write was that Missy just came in and she's all tiny. I was going to be sad but then I remembered that I don't care. I really don't. I'm so done feeling sorry for myself. I am 100% comfortable to be the cute, round friend. Especially since I don't have to be the cute, round friend who looks longingly at her friends' relationships. My hair feels kinda frumpy... But that's only because I need a haircut. Other than that, I'm totally comfortable with myself. I still want to lose weight and get healthy but I can deal with being me. I'm making Billy go shopping on Saturday so I can get cute clothes that actually fit instead of trying to squeeze into my old size and be sad about it. I'm in a good mood that way. Yay! ~Jilli~

RetroPost: 4.5.05

{Saved from Xanga} *RANT* For someone who gets paid more than me because she has "experience", Jenn is a really crappy employee. If she has all that experience, then she shouldn't be asking me how to close accounts or do the federal tax deposits or how to enter the voided official checks. And if she has to ask me all those questions, she shouldn't be getting paid so much more than me and she definitely shouldn't be trying to boss me around. I mean, how many months have I been watering the plants?!? I've kept these plants alive for seven months. They are freakin' thriving because of me! And she had the audacity to ask me (ME!) if I could water the plants!!! Um, no. Then she says, "I would, but I would probably drown them..." Then, to top it all off, she decided she had the need to regale a tale of her houseplants. I... don't... care! Especially since I self appointed myself to take care of the plants. I even got the ugly dead plant to come back to life and now it flowers like no other. She just pisses me off. I try to be cordial and friendly since she seems to have a pretty sucky life but good god. OK, I'm done. *END RANT* In other news, I'm slipping into Blahville again if you haven't noticed. I think a clean house, a haircut, and a cute new outfit would do the trick... Somehow, we ended up spending almost $90 at Wal-Mart yesterday. Pretty much it was buying a bunch of stuff we really needed but were too po' to think about. Like vitamins. And girly stuff... pads, makeup, razors- I've been making due but it's been sucky. And the dogs needed food again. Luckily we started our pets out on Chow when they were babies and not some fancy expensive stuff. The dogs are going through a 50 pound bag about every 2-3 weeks. The cats go through a 20 pound bag in a month or so... That's nearly 120 pounds of animal food a month! We love them tho'. They're our children. Anyway, we spent a lot more than I really wanted to but other than that, we're finally back on track with our money. Not amazing, but back to normal. After our shopping escapades, I'm hoping Billy's commission check is decent. ~ So life isn't very interesting right now... Still trying to decide if we're going to sell our house and move to Fallon. I'm hesitant to do that before our debts are paid off but we don't want to get stuck in Fernley. We also don't want the house market to get too crazy and at the same time we don't want it to crash into the ground. So, I don't know what to do. On top of all of the house talk, I've been kinda sorta a little bit (OK, a lotta bit) hit with baby fever. Weird, huh? I've been going a little crazy~ I've been picking out names... well, a boy name has been picked out since before we even started dating ... but I went off the deep end and decided to pick out a girl name. Billy and I have decided on Ashlyn Janessa. Ashlyn as in Ashley and Lynn mooshed together (my middle name and my mom's middle name) and Janessa since the Janess name has to passed on some how! Yeah, I'm losing my mind. I even went to Target.com and picked out a nursery set. It is way too adorable! It's a bright safari set with the cutest little animals! I know, I know, I sound completely nutters especially since I've been so anti-baby for so long. But Billy and I both agree that we should be in our new house before we get pregnant. The prospective "plan" (there's never really a plan) is to be in our house and working on a baby by our third anniversary. It seems like a good plan timing wise and saving wise. OK, I'm being long winded today. I'm outta here! ~Jilli~

RetroPost: 4.1.05

{Saved from Xanga} I was starting to feel really good about life... but right now I'm feeling blah again! I can't keep doing this to myself. I am so full of chicken and the smell of popcorn and hot dogs in making me nauseous. I hate this shirt and my shoes and my hair needs to be washed. I'm tired. I need to do something about this. I really hate myself sometimes. That's it. I quit. Game over man. Game over! ~Serenidy~