3 a.m. Again. But Brighter!

So... I've really been feeling completely worthless in the last few months. I feel like there's no way I can do all that I am responsible for so I don't even try. No really. I don't try. I go, "OMG, I'm responsible for raising Keiren, cleaning the house, laundry, cooking, finances, pets, shopping, keeping up on EVERYTHING and I. Just. Can't. So... I won't. I'll just sit here and let everything go to hell around me and spend a good portion of time griping. Yeah."
BUT... I've been anticipating this series on Money Saving Mom about time management. I read the first few and was like... mmm *shrug*. She was talking about concentrating on what your good at and capable of doing well and dropping everything else that's cluttering your life. That's when that panicky feeling popped up where I'm like, "I'm not good at ANYTHING! I'm just not. The only thing I'm good at is budgeting our money." And then she told us about... the Time Budget. Holy. Frickin'. Crap. So obvious! Why didn't I think of this before??? Oh yeah. Because I've been wallowing for 2.5 years. That's why.
I'm not really ready to set out the Time Budget yet... But it's coming. And it's close. And I'm so excited! This could be really good.

Weakness is my Strength

I have zero time management skills. ZERO. As I am typing this at 3 a.m., it's a pretty obvious fact. Oh, plus I am LAZY. So the issue of needing at least the framework of a schedule and real work in the time management area is so very much at the top of my list of goals. BUT...
The first little snippet of advice was to find your strengths and let those be your guide in how you manage your time. Unfortunately, I have no strengths. I have a household to run and the only strength I have is weakness. I am weak weak weak. Emotionally, physically, spiritually weak. In every aspect, I do the bare minimum. Bills are paid, we have food, and sometimes we have clean underwear. My daughter is alive and clean. My husband doesn't completely hate me. My eyebrows are actually plucked. But I didn't shower today. Or do dishes.
Okay, what did I do right? Um... I did give Keiren and Josie a bath. Yeah. That's about it. I am so lame, it's not even funny.