RetroPost: 1.27.05

{Saved from Xanga} Everything seems to be falling apart... no, no. Actually, it's more like everything is barely staying together. For some reason, we have no money. We are, a Billy says, po' because we had to sell the o and the r for groceries. So, it's not a bad as all that but we have to stay on a very tight budget and he really really doesn't like that at all. Unfortunately, I've always indulged us... and even though we don't have any extra money, we're still semi indulgent. This week has been a bust. Billy is sick. Again. He's aggrevated beyond reason with working for my parents. Understandably. We had a great weekend together but it kind of killed our beautiful house and the dishes are piling up and our living room is a mess. Not a disaster area though! I've been so exhausted this week and trying to take care of Billy and eating like a freaking piggy... We're doing better today. It's just been hellacious. No clean clothes. We've eaten out every night this week which is killer on our money situation. God, I hope once we dig ourselves out of this, it never happens again. We've set ourselves up for this fall since September. We went on vacation without backup... I got really sick in October thus upping our painful hospital bill... December brought Christmas... Don't get me wrong I love Christmas but I'm planning way better this year so we aren't shopping for our whole gaggle in one month. That screws you over quickly. Then, when January started we became Lord and Lady Bountiful for about 2 seconds and BAM! Po' again. So here I am, trying to dig us out... and everything is piling on top.... AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH *Jilli*

RetroPost: 1.12.05

{Saved from Xanga} It has been so long since I've done this whole diet and exercise thing that I'm getting very easily discouraged. Billy isn't much help either, he's not the most supportive person when it comes to my goals. I think he may be trying to keep me exactly as I am, but I really do want to improve myself. It will be a work in progress, kind of like our home. Wow. I actually said home and not house. That is a first for me I think. When I think of home I think of my parent's house or that first apartment in Sun Valley that Billy and I had. I don't think that I've actually thought of our Fernley house as our home until just now. It must be because we're really working on it this time. It feels really good knowing our house is going to be this tidy, cozy little home by fall. ANYWAY, I gained the cliches. The Freshman 15, then the Newlywed 15 on top of that all within 2 years. And there is sits. Well, when we started our relationship almost 3 years ago, I was 140 pounds. By Christmas that year, I was 155. Now, I'm a disgusting 170. So hell, if I'm going to do this I might as well be 135... We have a lot on our plate for this year especially for so early in January. My goals of self-improvment, the house overhaul, getting our finances together/saving... God give us strength. , *Jilli*