Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Pudgy Around the Edges

I can sit still and breathe silently.
I can climb at least four flights of stairs without wanting to die.
I can still shop at regular stores.
But.
I can blitz out a bag of Doritos without thought.
I can justify my bad decisions.
I can gain back all I've lost across three weeks in five days.

It is so unfair that I've wasted my 20s being completely fat. It's so unfair that I didn't get to be one of those people that was just thin without thought. This is the time my metabolism should be working for me but NO. I've just screwed up my body time and again and I'm too damn selfish and lazy to work for it. And keep up with it forever. Suck suck suck.