RetroPost: 1.12.05

{Saved from Xanga} It has been so long since I've done this whole diet and exercise thing that I'm getting very easily discouraged. Billy isn't much help either, he's not the most supportive person when it comes to my goals. I think he may be trying to keep me exactly as I am, but I really do want to improve myself. It will be a work in progress, kind of like our home. Wow. I actually said home and not house. That is a first for me I think. When I think of home I think of my parent's house or that first apartment in Sun Valley that Billy and I had. I don't think that I've actually thought of our Fernley house as our home until just now. It must be because we're really working on it this time. It feels really good knowing our house is going to be this tidy, cozy little home by fall. ANYWAY, I gained the cliches. The Freshman 15, then the Newlywed 15 on top of that all within 2 years. And there is sits. Well, when we started our relationship almost 3 years ago, I was 140 pounds. By Christmas that year, I was 155. Now, I'm a disgusting 170. So hell, if I'm going to do this I might as well be 135... We have a lot on our plate for this year especially for so early in January. My goals of self-improvment, the house overhaul, getting our finances together/saving... God give us strength. , *Jilli*