RetroPost: 12.11.06

{Saved from Xanga} Well, here I am again. It hasn't quite been the year I spoke of, just seven months and we're about to wrap up our time off. But, God, we've had a HELLUVA time! ^_^ We've gone to Arizona twice, Disneyland twice, San Francisco, New York, Washington... We've thrown together a wedding in 16 hours then did another one the next month, dealt with death, gotten a new "baby", made new friends and better relationships with our old friends, celebrated birthdays, drank ourselves into oblivion on multiple occasions, ran a business by ourselves for two weeks, and flat out become better lovers, fighters, friends and people all around. Keizo and Ren have totally better attitudes about everything and they're going to leave their funky little shack better for it. With that said... There are so many things going through my mind right now. The first one is the fact that I really truly have decided within myself to stop this downward spiral I've put my body in the past four years. It's time to stop. It's time to stop feeling badly for myself. It drives me crazy and it has got to stop. End of story, the end, check soon for details... *sigh* Secondly, now that we're going back to our "homeland" and going to settle down (aka- buy a house and get jobs again), we're really going to start thinking about a lil bitty Thompson/Amano into this world. For the first time in our relationship, I feel truly comfortable with this prospect. Before, it was either GOOD GOD NO BABIES or OOOOHHHHH I WANT ONE OF THOSE*cutiecutiecutiegoogooga*. Now my only reservations about mommyhood is the fact that we have no jobs, house or insurance. HA. Those are huge things when thinking about babies. What I mean is, I'm ready to start preparing myself to have a little one running around. So technically, I'm on perma-NOBABIES but for different reasons than before. Before I was afraid. Now I know that our marriage is in the safe and secure and loving status that a child deserves to live around. We're not too young. We're not brand-newlyweds. We've got our minds and souls organized. We've spent an AWESOME three years being JUST US. So, the tentative plan (cuz ya really can't just plan these things out) is to prep ourselves physically and financially and exhaust the list of "Just the Two of Us" things we want to do. Roast a turkey, go to Hawaii again, go on our Disney cruise, buy our house and set it up smarvalously, all that good stuff. *hum* Oh, and figure out a spirituality thing. I suppose we won't have to know right off the bat but it would be awfully nice to know what the crackers we're going to teach our inquisitive chitlin about God and what comes next. RELIGION as it is... ah, it's still a very touch subject in the Thompson household. Our last discussion ended in me dissolving into tears and hysterics, thickly exclaming, "YOU'LL NEVERNEVERNEVERNEVERNEVER understand what it was like!" So, I suppose we'll play it by ear as this next year pans out. Said new friends (Mitch & Lissa) want to start a study group with them, us and Missy & Noah. Erm... I think it's worth a try but I know my God complex and my skepticism in Noah's theology may be a wee bit of a roadblock for that one. So we'll see. Billy also wants me to have it out with my parents and clear all the air that still settles over us. (Not looking forward to it >_<) Anyhoo, that's more than enough of a seven month update. Especially since it's already McDonald's time. ^_^ FIN!