RetroPost: 6.17.05

{Saved from Xanga} Thank God it's Friday. A weekend without anything expected of me... That's nice. I'm going to kick it off by hanging out at home by myself and doing laundry while Billy goes to class. I hope it beats the grump out of him. He's exasperated by working for my dad today. It makes sense and I know he can't work there forever... but it's convenient at the moment. Not very lucrative, but convenient nevertheless. Anyway, laundry. We've let our house go. Again. It seems laundry and dishes are the two key points that keep our house from looking it's best. It's nasty. Kevin is coming to visit in a few weeks and it has to be in at least decent shape or we'll give him an asthma attack. So... I'm annoyed with being here and pretty "blah" about doing anything. It's strange. The new girl is so gung-ho about helping people and she's being a little too efficient. Rargh. Weekend, here I come! ~ Jilli~

RetroPost: 6.16.05

{Saved from Xanga} Being aware of your own mortality is an uneasy feeling. Yesterday I found out a girl from my class was murdered. I can't stop thinking about it. We were friends in junior high but not in high school. Either way, she was someone you could describe as "full of life". I haven't shed a tear for Shelby Ako but her death and the few childhood memories I have of her weigh on my mind heavily. It's funny. I always remembered her birthday since it was exactly two months before mine. So if I live to August 11th, I will be older than she ever got to be...

RetroPost: 6.15.05

{Saved from Xanga} What is wrong with me?!? It was so wonderful when it was forbidden... I couldn't get enough. Now that it's pure and oh so expected... I don't want to be touched. Good lord... Help...

RetroPost: 6.14.05

{Saved from Xanga} Yep, yep. They keep feeding us and thus I actually made a mistake today. Not so much the food I ate, but the bitching I did. Sorry Billy! If this is going to be a way of life, I can't do that again. If I'm so inclined, I will eat a frickin' Spicy Chicken Burrito. In either case, I've learned how fatty it actually is and next time I'll get a Grilled Steak Soft Taco with no creamy lime sauce. I really DO need an attitude adjustment as my mum always told me as a kid. Get over yourself, little girl. Until you learn to do that, you'll just be the shy fat chick with an unadventurous life... Perking up... , ~Serenidy~

RetroPost: 6.13.05

{Saved from Xanga} Well, it looks like cereal for dinner which I'm OK with. My parents keep taking us out to lunch. I'm not gorging like I usually do but I'm not being wonderfully good. I could've been, but I didn't feel like salad. In other news, Faith is in with Linda right now for her one-year review. That means I'm up soon which hopefully means a raise. I certainly hope so. Eight bucks an hour can only go so far. We're doing OK, but the sad thing is if we were to have a kid right now with our salaries, we'd easily qualify for welfare I'm sure. I guess the sadder thing is that when I go to the health nurse we don't even claim Billy's pay and we still pay more per pill pack then most! OK, I'm bored. See ya! Jilli

RetroPost: 6.11.05

{Saved from Xanga} Well, so far so good. I've only done two stupid things as far as this body overhaul goes. First, I went for a walk. In my work shoes. Blisters!!!! Aargh. Then, yesterday, while I didn't gorge like I usually do, I did go to the Mexican stand at Lattin Farms and had a yummy gordita. This in itself wasn't the mistake. The name of the game is "moderation". Unfortuately for my tastebuds, I made up for it with this heinous nutritional bar. It sounded OK when I bought it but it didn't taste very good. Nevertheless, it filled me up all right. Then I had a cookie but I only had one so I was proud of myself. Go me! Anyway, the reason I had the urge to write was because of the article I just read. The Backstreet Boys are coming out with a new album on Tuesday. I was surprised to read it's been nearly five years since Black and Blue. Can it be? Yes, it can. I remember that day since I crashed my car. Good lord time passes so fast. I was also surprised in how much I'm actually looking forward to it. Some things you just don't grow out of I suppose. It was my decree to KTBPA forever. Hard to believe that started when I was in junior high. Almost eight years ago... Jeez. I hate time. If only I could have more control over it... Being able to go back... No more of this crazy talk. The past is where it belongs. ~Jilli~

RetroPost: 6.9.05

{Saved from Xanga} I have been informed today that I have gained 11 pounds in the last year. That means I have gained exactly 41 pounds in the three years since high school. That's an average of 13.67 pounds a year! That's terrible. The fat bus stops here, my 41 friends. You will now be murdered one by one. I can no longer stand the sight of you. Goal #1: Get rid of the disgressions of 2004. (168) Goal #2: Get rid of the disgressions of 2003 and get out of the overweight category. (154) Goal #3: Get rid of the disgressions of 2002 and get back to my original happy weight! (140) Goal #4: Enjoy and maintain! WOOT! For real this time, y'all. Luvz! *Jilli Bean!*